Monday, June 1, 2009

wHen tHe pAst CoMes to The PreSent...


After almost 7 years, I met my friends from my secondary school in a reunion initiated by some of them. Initially, I agreed to attend the reunion considering that I was quite free at the moment. Then, last minute, I needed to call it off due to certain reason. And then at the later minute than the last minute, I agreed to re-join the reunion.. Complicated huh? Yup! After all, life is complicated. Never mind, to encapsulate, I did come to the 2 day and 1 night event in PD.

The meeting was great... There were a few awkward moments for me... I personally find it quite hard to adjust myself at first because many things have changed including myself. I just cannot find the vocabs to describe why I felt that way... Maybe because they expect me to be how I used to be in school (I could sense that from they way they treat me): therefore, I needed to 'be' whom I used to be... Of course I have no hard feeling whatsoever for that but you know... Hmmm.. (It's hard for me to explain)...



Overall, things was great. The best time there was when I spent almost the entire night doing the barbecue dealing with the charcoal, meat, sausage, chicken and the smoke (only God knows how disappointing I was when there was nothing left to be cooked.. hehehe). It's easier to deal with dead things, really! (but I have no intention to be neither embalmer nor crematorium technician. What more a coroner).
And,
The reunion calls me to reflect on the past things which reflection might change the future (I prefer to write it in general rather than specifying it. Let me keep this for myself since I nowadays do have an issue with trust. But generally, it's about how great things in the past didn't really turn out to be really great at the present- during the reunion, as I expected).

(p/s: This is rather an unedited version because I'm typing this in OLD TOWN White Coffee at my used-to-be houing area while waiting for the call from KFC regarding the part time job I applied last week. So, I couldn't really concentrate at my writing because I'm more focussed at the coffea.. hehehe.. I'll edit it next time)

It's over.. & zillion thanks to..

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It's over, eventually... After the 6-year struggle in this metropolitan city, there is a personal satisfaction for what I've managed to achieve in my study. Frankly, things might be better if I work harder at certain points. However, at most of the 'points', I know that I've done the best of my ability AT THAT MOMENT. Therefore, I do forgive myself and I've no regret for that. Indeed, I"m THANKFUL for getting the opportunities to walk down the lane and to experience what I've experienced in the last six years while completing my degree.. Both sweet and sour experience have taught me a great lesson for my future undertaking.

Thought, at the end of the day, it wasn't the greatest achievement of mankind whatsoever, it was (and still is and will forever be) a tremendous feeling to bounce back from my 'failure' during my secondary years. Plus, knowing great people (lecturers and friends) made the journey is worth taken... Since I owe them so much in any way, I'd like to take the trouble to list down their names here (I hope I didn't miss any names coz I'm rushing while writing this entry. Some I just categorized them since I'm running out of time):

1) My family (dad, mum, sis and my bro in law, my younger sis and bro).
2) My neighbours in Mersing, Johor.
3) My close friends/ course mates especially Aizam, Peik Jin, Aqmaal, Ermi, Anyss, Julia, Izz,
Mazliana, Zaff, Sze Mei, Alison, Kia Hooi...
4) The boys a.k.a my housemates/ course mates: Aiman, Firdaus, Ihsan, Amzar, Muhafiz,
Soddiq, Hafizuddin, Hadi, Aizat, Kherie, Zulfadli, Jeng Yong, Ing Ping.
5) My close friends in IPGM IK: Adham, Nazmi, Haziq, Jais.
6) ALL Lecturers both in IPIK and UM (such as Miss Illa, Miss Hawa, Mdm Komathy, Miss
Azlina, Miss Grace, Mdm Sheerin, Mdm Khalida, Ms Tracy, Mdm Joice, Mr. Ramli, Mdm
Aziah, Mdm Shanti, Mdn Norhalini, EN. Zulkifli, Ustaz Jainuddin, and the list go on and on).
7) Staffs in both IPGM IK and UM (such as Puan Noriah, Puan Marbiah etc)...

and every individuals who have helped me all this while. You know who you are...


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